My Journal..

moods_of_nature @ 2005-12-21T22:09:00

2005-12-22T03:19:31Z

Oh it's been a long time.

Ha I bet you didn't even notice.

But yes I've moved my lazy ass over Xanga because my friends are there mostly. And although Lj will always be my favorite I must stay trendy...or something.

Yeah but anyway fast update. It's been up and down but yeah it's been sorta hard times with person/people.

Oh and I got Laura's present and I'm really excited about it, because it's a little birthday and christmas cheer all wrapped up in a nice little box and Aww so cute! (Of course I have only half of it thus far but yeah it's getting there) I promise to have it to her by the 30th. Which is only like 9 days late birthday wise and 5 christmas wise so that's pretty good. Sorta / not really.

-sigh- Alright this is sorta buggin me and I think I'll talk to her about it soon...

And now a public service announcement:

Kat is the cutest ever. She got me the best x-mas gift like ever..Yay tacky rings and all our inside jokes.

Thank you for listening.

♥Mags

P.S. Omgosh if you get the chance listen to the musical Zanna, Don't! A Musical Fairy Tale. It is an amazing! I love the album to death. The songs are really inspiring and snaps for Tim Acito for the production.

moods_of_nature @ 2005-11-11T18:22:00

2005-11-11T23:30:22Z

29 weeks,
1 day,
23 hours,
34 mins.

Till Graduation '05.

Fuck I'm ready for it...not even x-mas break and I'm annoyed with people and all this god damn fucking drama.

Some people are good...No. Some people are great (Jonathon, Scott, Andy, Mary, Josh, Ann.(hell even Chase and me are getting along))

And then there are some people I'd like to tell them I love, and completely mean it just the way I know they mean it. (Scott)

...and now I'm wondering what it would take to make her start talking to me again. Because even if she doesn't know it's this is killing and hurting me faster than an relationship ever would have.

29 weeks,
1 day,
23 hours,
30 mins.

I like to steal.

2005-09-10T03:43:00Z

They wrote it better then I could have, so I stole it.

I want you to write down how you see me. Your perspective on who I am. Include one thing you like, and one you dislike (though you're not limited to just one of either) about me. Do you remember how we met? How long ago it was? A favorite memory from the time we've known eachother? Inside jokes? And even if we don't talk much, comment in some way. I mean come on, it's not going to kill you.

=/

2005-08-13T03:29:48Z

LAURA IS HOME! SQUEEEEEEEE! -excitment-

But ew because I feel like complete shit for various reasons.

moods_of_nature @ 2005-08-12T13:52:00

2005-08-12T17:53:00Z

I'm adding something so this thing doesn't get deleted...

Things suck without my Laura Reineke

EX-treme :(

...

2005-07-19T10:37:02Z

YESSSSS new private journal!

Shame I won't give it out isn't it.

moods_of_nature @ 2005-07-14T22:58:00

2005-07-15T03:48:01Z

Ok so it's been a while.

Sunday: Went shopping at the mall with Molly. It wasn't horrible we bought books and got pretz. at the new place. Then came home and stayed up till something like 5:00 in the morning with Laura talking about things, and people. When we finally got done I couldn't fall asleep so I stayed and watched the sun rise over Kroger.

Monday: Woke up around 2 respectfully. Then I pretty much spend from 2:30-6:00 talking to people on the computer, and getting ready for band. Went to band at 6:24 (thank God we only live 2 mins. away from the school) and yeah did that deal. Then came home and stayed online talking to J.Rog (<--Laura look what you did) and Leeann (sorta) oh and Chase (who I haven't seen/talked to in months!) and Kat (sorta). Then went to bed God knows when, blahblahetc.etc.

P.S. EWWW I tasted like brass the whole night, and it wouldn't come off. I washed my hands about 50 times!

Tuesday: Yeah woke up 2 something, I don't even know why I was asleep pretty early (one is early for me, shut up) And watched Bruce Almighty on Demand (decent movie, it passed the time) then got around and went to work from 4-10. It was Steph and me for about 20 mins. before Diane got there and omg we ate so much. And then Diane got there and we pretty much just hung out because we were slow. Steph and I went out to replace the trash bags out front, but they were already done so we just blow up out trash bags with the wind and pretended we were super hero's (yes you can call us dorks). We got locked out so yeah we had to wait for Diane to let us in, which took a while because she was taking care of some guy who kept staring at us (very creepy). When we got in we were laughing so hard we couldn't do anything but sit down. Amanda and Kady both came in at 7 (ack I hate Kady, creepy dad)(shh...you never heard me being mean)(ok, you did but shhh...no telling). But yeah we then just ate and took care of people, being dumb and not thinking right. Omg the mistakes. I made a medium strawberry shake at 4:30 and we seriously didn't another one till 9:15. What the hell I think God wanted me to label that damn shake, geez. But yeah it sold, and we all took home our mistakes. I came home and pretty much did nothing outside of sending J.Rog some decent music to listen to. Laura was in Canada (eh?) and so we couldn't talk really. And stayed up late (4am) because I just couldn't sleep at all (hyper mood from work). Yeah watched MTV, crap TV that it is, it was actually amusing. (I was making fun of the music videos by myself, it was grand -note sarcasm)

Wednesday: Woke up early for once, got in the shower and yeah did my hair and makeup, etc. I actually talked to Scott, like actual conversation, for a while and we talked about music, and what's been going on in our ever exciting lives. Then we decided to exchange CDs at band that night. So I saw him there and did the switch. (Love his hair, very cool) and then Laura got there, back from Canada. And yeah we did the band scene (which I love by the way) and then went home and talked to people (seeing a trend yet?) But then Maddie came over and I hung out with Molly and her. It was actually pretty fun, we sang stupid old songs and did Bohemian Rhapsody as always (it's tradition to do it) and then I read my book (The Boyfriend List, very good thus far) and then went to sleep.

Thursday: Woke up late, because I didn't sleep well at all. I had some horrible dreams, none of which I'm sharing because they scare me to much to write out...so let's just say they all involved dying of someone close to me in a horrible wretched way. And yeah I've done pretty much but be crabby and feel icky because well Mother Nature thought it would be cute to send me a visitor. (it wasn't cute) and yeah. But then I found pills, aka Midol, and am now at least bearable and won't kill you if you say 'hi' to me.

So there is my life up to now. Gosh I wrote a lot, well enjoy this and then leave a comment damn it, they make me feel special.

Love always, Magster

things i've concluded

2005-07-12T01:07:50Z

So I'm thinking I should write some sort of play to act out all the wrechedly perfect case scenerios where the guy gets the girl

and then write the same play, but make it ironic and completely reversed

SEE EXAMPLE:

GOOD: (used this in my last entry) It's raining and the girl is sitting out in the rain crying over lost love. Then the rain stops the sun comes out and the guy shows up looking wet and absolutely gorgy. And the girl looks up all makeup smeared and whatnot. He helps he up and proclaims his love for her. They kiss and the movie ends....THE END.

BAD/IRONIC/WHATEVER: It's raining and the girl is out in the rain crying over lost love. Then the hot gorgy uy pulls up in his hot car throws the girl a throw and beeps his horn...she would look at him confused and then from behind her some slut would come out of the bar smoking and she would ground out the cig next to the girl on the corner and jump in the car. They would then proceed to drive off as the rain stops and it get sunny...THE END.

Ok so I'm a little deraged, you know it wouldn't be the same if I wasn't ;)

OMG! NOOO

2005-07-08T23:47:04Z

WHY MUST IT BE LIGHT OUT?!?!?!! I WISH IT WAS DARK!!!! I WANNA GO OUT AND SIT IN THE RAIN...DAMN IT ALL WHY DOES IT HAVE TO RAIN NOW?????????

ok done with the CAPS lock but omg I'm so upset that it's raining while it's light out. If it rains again when it gets dark damn it I'm going to go sit outside

^this probably sounds depressing but you've no idea how nice and enjoyable it is^

Oh and look at this it's stopped and now the sun is coming out. This is just like in some sort of teen chick flick

(end scene)
It's raining and the girl is sitting out in the rain crying over lost love. Then the rain stops the sun comes out and the guy shows up looking wet and absolutely gorgy. And the girl looks up all makeup smeared and whatnot. He helps he up and proclaims his love for her. They kiss and the movie ends....THE END.

God this sucks

So this is pointless

2005-07-04T05:25:26Z

You want to know why this is pointless because the people who need to read it don't because they are gay and retarded....WHATEVER like fuck them, seriously. -sigh-

Now that I'm over that I relize something, but I can't say anything about it. GOD! -dies-

alkhdfjkahdlkghaldhgadlfghaklhfgahdlkgjha;dfg <-- that sums up exactly how I'm feeling. It's like I'm happy but it's such a fake mood, and I feel like I'm just putting on a smile and going on with life even though I want to back up and scream, punch, and work some things out.

OMG LAURA REINEKE WILL LEAVE ME FOR CAMP AND I WILL DIE. BAND CAMP WILL SUCK. AND BOO! -pouts- YAY! for snail mail :|

It's been a while

2005-06-30T23:05:16Z

Yeah I was on vacation and we got home last night. It was good but I think maybe I need another one soon.

But on a happy note I went to lunch with Laura and gave her the presents from the trip I got her. :)

YAY LYRICS! ENJOY that I edited them a little bit...

Why do we need this
Who was it that said
Great things come to great men
Well that fucker lied to us
There's nothing here but a wasteland,

And I can still see the graves of the dead
but it's useless
most of us would rather sit
than see this wound
that we have created

Senseless and I'm not sure why
I'm not going to pretend that I know all the answers
Or all of the questions
Its got to be good for something

so we'll chalk this and we'll mount the dead
on the fireplace above right above our guilded heads

I'm sick and I'm tired of always being the good guy
like sitting in the back seat (it's all the rage)
and boring me with your body (it's all the rage)
how many times can I say I'm sorry (it's all the rage)
and really mean it (and really mean it)

Ok so now that I'm done with that little kick I want to end on this note. Ignore the insane CAP lock to come

WHY THE HELL DO I FUCKING BOTHER WITH PEOPLE? THEY SCREW ME OVER, WASTE MY TIME, IGNORE AND LEAVE ME...

FOR FUN!

2005-06-17T03:48:33Z

1. What's the first word that comes to mind when you think of me? [DONT TELL ME!]
2. Go to http://images.google.com/ and search for that word.
3. Reply to this post with one of the pictures on the first page of results (don't tell me the word). Use an image tag, or just post the link to the image.
4. Put this in your own blog so that I can do the same.

A little thanks to some very important people...

2005-06-16T23:55:59Z

I borrowed this from a friend because they had summed it better then I could have. Thanks to those people mentioned below. I hope we stay friends eternally. And I mean that from the bottom of my heart.

A "Simple" Story and Some Words Of Advice.
I tried to leave this world before. I was never really happy you see, I would try to be the crazy one, and it seemed to work, for a while. I knew that they never really cared, I just knew it. I felt disconnected from them, as if I was in a dark little corner surrounded by my own unhappiness and they were off in the distant, having fun and never knowing what I felt, maybe they still loved me I thought to my self. It really didn't seem that way. What would happen if I left? Would they feel responsible for it? I think that's what I wanted. For them to be sad and empty just like me. I heard that heaven was a good place, and that not one of them would be there, I thought for a moment, the object still tightly closed in my hand, and it felt horrible to be that way, cold and empty, did I really want everyone around me feeling that way too? In a way, I wanted to be the only one. It was my thing, my special little world, where I could go a hide from it all, but it was really just a dream, and they are the complete opposite of reality. I would hold my breath for as long as I could, just on the edge on leaving. I tried to tell them once, but they didn't get the picture exactly how I wanted them to. It was true, I had people I was pretty close to in life, just not at the time. Maybe if we had met sooner it wouldn't have gotten that far. Then again I had my family, or what was left of it. Yes everyone was still there, but they were so different from me. They were content with the way their lives were, and none of them felt like me.

That was the end of 8th grade and beginning of 9th, I thought, as I entered my school for the last 2 quarters that things would be different. I decided to not be that way anymore, to be happy and carefree, but you cannot control the depression, it controls you, and I still felt that same way at times, an outsider and unhappy. I tried to make the best of it, keep it in, but eventually the sadness turned to anger which turned to pain, which consumed me for a few sad weeks...

I'd like to think that I'm better now, sometimes it's even true, recently I've had people helping me get through all of it. I don't hurt myself, think that everyone would be better with me and don't think so negatively anymore.

I would like to thank a few certain people, Kat, Mary and especially Laura, they have given me courage and all the support in the world. Thank you guys, even though you never knew you helped me in such a huge way, I know for a fact that I wouldn't still be here.

One last thing, if your ever planning to hurt your self in anyway DON'T, yes I may seem like your all alone no one with you but your wrong. Someone out there loves you, never doubt it like I did.

:( Just sad.

2005-06-14T21:30:01Z

Things are just bothering me lately.

Today: Got my grade card and got bitched at about how I do nothing and I put forth no effort. I hate when my parents do this. They make me feel like shit. They don't have a damn clue how hard school is and how pressed I am for time and everything. I just hate it.

Yesterday: Was good up till about the time me and my friend started talking about Scott at burger king. What was said was that he probably won't stay in touch with anyone except for the one person. And that just made me sad because I know now that I'm nothing to Scott, and our friendship just annoys him and does not mean anything now because I was just a phase or something to the effect of one. Add the fact that someone else was annoying me so much that I jumped on her back and probably forced her to say things she did not want to. We apologized but I still feel like shit about it. And last, but not the worst, there is my ex-bf who is just driving me crazy because I'm stupid and tried to talk to him again. It did not go good and things are now worse off because we can't be civil to each other anymore...

Tomorrow: Only a heartbeat away but I already know it's going to blow in some way or another...

Call my cell phone because I feel like shit...................

fast update

2005-06-12T05:03:55Z

Making this quick cause leeann is cheaking them all

YAY for 3 full days only like what 58 more. Congrats

Thanks josh for fixing your profile, it's cute in a semi normal weird way :)

Laura renieke where are you?!?!??!!one shiftbackslash

work was crappy

2005-06-11T04:37:03Z

yeah it was and then I went to the festival for I don't know why, I just did. Meet up with Laura for a few to talk and she took me home. Not before I saw some people I would have liked not to.

I'm so proud of LeeAnnDoe, because you know she's her and she always win (lmao) Congrats on almost 48 hours -ehigh:four- (what I kept the thumb down, don't ask...)

wow what a day...thanks to everyone who made it special thus far (especially LAURA!)

2005-06-10T18:00:26Z

Woke up at 11:00 got online and did nothing there for a while. Now I'm out here in the trailer wondering why I got an extra sweet thank you from laura, I'm not complaing about it just saying it was cute and I was shocked when I got it. But it made me get all teary eyed cause I loved it. But yes, so I sent one back to Laura thanking her, blah blah, etc etc. no one wants to hear about me. But anyway, it's like 2:00 and I have work again tonight at 4 till 10; then I think I'm going to come home, change and then head up to the festival for a couple of hours. Then I think I'll be home maybe 12:30 (since I've got to wait for mom to get done in the kitchen) to talk to people.

And I swear if I get one more rude comment from someone using the anonymous status I think I'll just go crazy and stop using thing. People like that are the reason I'm cold and mean to others. Damn them..

AND big proud congrats to leeann you've made it through almost 2 days! -cheers!-

sorry...

2005-06-10T02:47:34Z

I feel like just apoligizing to people for a lot of different reasons

--Like bringing up something I shouldn't have

--Making someone admit something they didn't want to

--For fighting and agrugeing with people over stupid things

--For even being in someone's life

God...I feel like shit. Maybe leave me a message and make me feel better?

And now I'm begging people to make me feel better. -slaps self- Why did I get rid of that box...?

Just blah...

2005-06-09T00:34:56Z

Wow I never thought I wouldn't know what to talk about with some people, I wish it wasn't like that. I really miss the good times with my friends...

-long sigh- I'm lost for words with you people. God...and you know the person I'm really talking about won't even read this and even if they do they won't give a damn.

To recap...

2005-06-03T00:58:38Z

So let's see since it is almost friday, and I haven't updated in a few days I will do just that.

So yesterday was what wed. Yeah I went to the mall with laura and alex. got my graduation outfit and laura talked me into buying this wine colored dress for something or another. I think maybe I'll wear it for homecoming in a few months. But on any note I had a ton of fun going and shopping.

And today, thursday was quite enjoyable also, had english and band for exams and that was painless and easy for the most part. then I came home, studied a bit and then headed to my track banquet, that was fun and we took tons of pictures. I can't wait to go out and get a scrap book for the summer and for next year. I'm really hoping to get into that because I have all these pictures and memories I want to keep close.

I'm so excited about tommorrow being the last day. I have old testament and then science and then I'M FREE! not that it matters because I'm going to be working all the time instead of school now...-sigh- oh well I love where I work...

So cheers! for a really great few days~ Magster

EW LEEANN!

2005-05-31T01:31:17Z

We promised not to bring that up...

-erases you're madly in love with him from my voc.-

To tired to study spanish anymore

2005-05-31T00:30:47Z

So I'm going to do this insanely long form thingy, which I stole from Sarah (thanks)

What is your name? Maggie
Are you named after anyone? I had a great aunt Maggie, but I was named more after Mary Magdalene (yeah the whore)
What's your screename? duckychick843
Would you name a child of yours after you? Sure, I like the name Maggie
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be? Cameron, my little baby nefews name!
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be? Um, Laura probably
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that people do w/ your name constantly? Saying my last name and spelling my first name...you do not spell it Maggy or Magie (who does that?!)
Would you drop your last name if you became famous? Maybe, but probably not...gotta show some family pride

Basics
Your gender: Female
Straight/Gay/Bi: straight
Single? Yeah, enjoying it also
If not do you want to be? (see the above)
Birth date: April 2 , 1990
Age: 15
Age you act: Depends on my mood
Age you want to be: 16...just so I can drive
Your height: Maybe 5'5" or 5'6"
Your eye color: Natural: grey, like before it rains...Contacts: a tuquiose color
Happy with it? Yeah I guess, my natural is nice, and I enjoy my fake contacts, I'm pretty happy with both honestly
Hair color: Dirty blonde, with natural and also fake highlights...
Happy with it: Yup it looks good, but I need to get my highlights done again soon
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous? Righty
Your living arrangement? With the rents, but I suppose it could be worse
Your family: mom, dad, josh and ashley, jason and courtney, molly (while I don't like acknowledging it)
Have any pets? Yeah dog-emma, and then 3 cats-jake, blackie, sugar
Whats your job? Work at J.B.Twisters, and school work of course
Piercings? Twice in my ears, even though I don't wear earrings much anymore
Tattoos? In due time..
Obsessions? Neopets, my friends, and the computer
Addictions? Neopets, my friends, and the computer
Do you speak another language? Yeah spanglish (spanish and english mix)
Have a favorite quote? Oh the tangled web we weave when we deal in decit
Do you have a webpage? Not anymore
Do you live in the moment? Yeah for the most part..
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? Yeah sometimes, and then there are others when I could do without people
Do you have any secrets? Yeah, but I'm not about to go telling you all of them
Do you hate yourself? Yes, with a passion it seems lately
Do you like your handwriting? I have my days when it looks nice and others when it's shit
Do you have any bad habits? Yeah, but they are to numerous to all write down
What is the compliment you get from most people? Um...I don't know, I don't get compliments very often from people.
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? Alone in A Corner.
What's your biggest fear? People rejecting me
Can you sing? I don't like to think so
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? No, but I suppose I probably did at one point
Are you a loner? I can be, it just depends on my mood
What are your #1 priorities in life? Be happy, find love, have fun getting there
If you were another person, would you be friends with you? Yeah, even though I'm not a great person I can be semi-cool at times
Are you a daredevil? Naturally not really, but when pushed just a bit
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? My ability to get so wrapped up into things that I stop thinking straight
Do you have a journal? Obviously I do...this is a pointless question
What is your greatest strength and weakness? Strength: I'm good at getting along with people Weakness: My emotions and the ability people have with twisting them
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? My emotions...they cause me a lot of hell
Do you think you are emotionally strong? Hell NO!
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? Yeah, but I'm not about to get into all that
Do you think life has been good so far? I don't know, this is only the beginning...I'm trying not to judge yet
What do you like the most about your body? Um the fact that I'm thin, and really long-limbed
What do you like the least? My non-exsistant boobs
Do you think you are good looking? I guess for the most part
Are you confident? Depends what we're talking about...but in general I try to be...
Are you perceived wrongly? Yeah, it seems I give off the impression of a slutty bitch who could ruin your life

Do you:
Smoke? OMG NO! I HATE SMOKERS!!!! -stabs cigs-
Drink? Not a lot, but I've had the occasion wine and such
Do drugs? If I don't smoke, why would I put this shit into my body
Read the newspaper? The world is a sad place, I try to stay away from reading about it...
Pray? Random requests to God and pleas of help...other than that not really
Go to church? Hardly, I don't like it...it's far to uptight for me
Talk to strangers who IM you? Sometimes, it just depends
Sleep with stuffed animals? Yeah sometimes...
Take walks in the rain? YESH! It's like a past-time for me
Talk to people even though you hate them? I try to avoid it, but sometimes it can't be helped
Drive? Not yet...obviously
Like to drive fast? No, but give me sometime

Have you ever:
Liked your voice? Yeah I guess
Hurt yourself? Numerous times
Been out of the country? Sadly no...but it's in the works
Eaten something that made other people sick? I don't know
Been in love? Not to my knowledge
Done drugs? EW NO!
Gone skinny dipping? yesh...haha good times!
Had a medical emergency? yeah, but let's not get into that
Had surgery? Nope
Ran away from home? no...I've wanted to at times, but I have no where to go...
Played strip poker? YESH! omg BAND TRIP! lmao!!!! good times ;)
Gotten beaten up? Not physically, but emotionally yeah
Beaten someone up? Not really
Been picked on? Yeah, a lot
Been on stage? Sure a few times..
Slept outdoors? Yup
Thought about suicide? More than once
Pulled an all nighter? Yeah a few times
If yes, what is your record? Went till 1AM the next day (omg I slept like a rock)
Gone one day without food? Yeah, a few times
Talked on the phone all night? Yup, I try not to anymore, it normally results in me falling asleep on the person
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex? Yeah, it's not a huge deal, Kyle was my pillow for a few hours
Slept all day? Yeah, it was after that all nighter
Killed someone? Um no...and even if I had do you think I would say something here about it, come on that's just stupid
Made out with a stranger? Nope
Had sex with a stranger? Obviously not, I'm not the kind of person for one-night-stands
Thought you're going crazy? I no longer think...I know
Kissed the same sex? Yeah, on the cheek
Done anything sexual with the same sex? Nope, not to my knowledge
Been betrayed? Yeah, on a few occasions
Had a dream that came true? Yeah once and a while I get weird dreams where I see things and then they happen and I see them soon after
Broken the law? Yeah, but it wasn't anything major
Met a famous person? nope...
Have you ever killed an animal by accident? No!
Have you ever killed an animal on purpose? I kill BUGS, god you morons...
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? Yeah, it honestly was for the better though.
Stolen anything? Yeah when I was 7 or 8 I remember walking out of kohls with a ring, I thought it was pretty and I stuck it on my finger to show my mom, I don't remember taking it off after my mom told me to. and I honestly don't know what happened to it.
Been on radio/tv? Yeah, but not for anything special
Been in a mosh-pit? nope
Had a nervous breakdown? Yeah...
Bungee jumped? FWEE! yeah it was nifty spiffy
Had a dream that kept coming back? Yeah...it scared me shit-less for a week to

Beliefs
Believe in life on other planets? It's it naive to think otherwise
Miracles? yeah
Astrology? to a certain point
Magic? yes
God? at times
Satan? yeah
Santa? not after I helped carry down presents for the last 3 years
Ghost? yes, I believe their are a couple in my house
Luck? for some people
Love at first sight? Not really
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)? yeppers
Witches? Yeah I believe in them
Easter bunny? you're kidding right?
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow? not anymore
Do you wish on stars? When I'm feel very childish and insecure

Friends:
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends? more than a few, but yeah I don't have a problem with it
Who is your best friend? Laura, Scott, and Leeann maybe?
Who's the one person that knows most about you? Laura and Scott
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you? I don't know I've been given a lot of good advice, best though probably came from Laura, telling me to stop being friends and talking to Chase (it's a shame I can't follow it through all the way)
Your favorite inside joke? -whisper in scott's ear- do it... (omg that was great)
Thing you're picked on most about? mostly sexual things, like me being a lesbian or a whore/slut/etc.
Who's your longest known friend? Jessica?
Newest? Jessica Cohn
Shyest? Lindsey
Funniest? Laura, Scott, Leeann, and Kyle
Sweetest? LAURA! and LEEANN!
Closest? Laura, Scott?, and Kat?
Weirdest? they're all weird...no offence guys
Smartest? Josh
Friends you miss being close to the most? Scott, he just seems to push me away or get angry with me anymore
Last person you talked to online? Leeann and Laura
Who do you talk to most online? Lately it's Leeann, Laura, and Jessica Cohn
Who are you on the phone with most? Not phone, cell phone...and it's probaby Chase (sad to say)
Who do you trust most? Laura, Scott, Josh, Leeann at times also
Who listens to your problems? Laura, Scott, Josh, Leeann at times (god I feel like a broken record machine)
Who do you fight most with? Josh, but you'll have that...
Who's the nicest? Laura
Who's the most outgoing? Kyle and Jessica
Who's the best singer? LAURA! hands down and no questions asked...
Who's on your shit-list? A few people, but I'm not going to say their names.
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend? Yeah, but we won't go into that, lol
Who's your second family? I barely have a first. =\
Do you always feel understood? LMAO! hardly...
Who's the loudest friend? Maybe Jessica or Kyle?
Do you trust others easily? depends
Who's house were you last at? Kat's?
Name one person who's arms you felt safe in: Laura, and Scott
Do your friends know you? I guess they sorta do, but maybe not completely
Do you consider love a mistake? In some cases yes...
Who do you find romantic? I don't know...oh LEEANN!
Turn on? people who have confidence and aren't arrogent, and they listen to me
Turn off? fakes and jackasses, people who are nice to your face but stab you in the back first chance they get
First kiss? God that was forever ago, I don't even really remember it (how sad is that?)
If someone you had no interest in had interest in dating you how would you feel? wow...akward situation everytime you talk...
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going out? Yeah
Have you ever wished it was more socially acceptable for a girl to ask a guy out? It's not acceptable?
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive? Sorta, I don't know, beauty is in the eye of the beholder
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking? I don't know, I don't normally ask them, but I'll get back to you on that
What is best about the opposite sex? They are the opposite sex? lol
What's the last present someone gave you? I can't remember honestly...
Are you in love? Just with myself. lol
Do you consider your significant other hot? Since I have no significant other... -_-"

Who’s the last person…
That haunted you? IDK!
You wanted to kill? People who claim to be my "friends"
That you laughed at? Maybe Leeann? I can't remember
That laughed at you? I don't know
You went shopping with? My mom, sister,and Maddie as usual
That turned you on? Not a clue
That broke your heart? uh...I don't feel like sharing
To disappoint you? um probably jessica...I thought we were better friends
To ask you out? I don't get asked out
To make you cry? uh...maybe Chase or Scott, can't remember
To brighten up your day? LAURA AND LEEANN!
That you thought about? Laura, Leeann, Scott, and Chase (yeah I multi-task)
You saw a movie with? I think it was with the group, I don't remember honestly
You talked to on the phone? Chase, but it was the cell
You talked to through IM? Leeann and Laura and Scott for a min or two
You saw? My sister...she just yelled at me for something, I wasn't listening
You lost? What does that mean?

God I'm weak...

2005-05-30T23:16:18Z

I feel like such a loser...to be doing this when I promised Laura I won't. Damn phone, damn chase, damn everything on this earth.

so...I had a pretty shitty memorial day to be perfectly honest, it was boring as hell. There is nothing to do at this damned house. And I hate exams and I hate people for being dumb and annoying me...

God this week hasn't even started and I already hate it....

Fuck everyone on this damned planet...

2005-05-30T03:05:57Z

Well as if that subject isn't enough to tell you the mood i'm in...yeah it's been a lovely weekend!

friday! a bucket of tears held back from honors assembly...but yeah you'll have that. then you know i had work and that was fun, as per usual. got called a bitch by the new girl, which was just you know appreciated since it's her damn fault i was so mean to her.

saturday! wow well it started out pretty good, went down to columbus to see my brother and his gf and of course the new baby! he's sooo cute, and incredibly small! but then we went to outback and it was delicious, then came back to findley picked up mary, jessica, and kat and came back to my house. we spent the night out in the camper having a good time.

sunday! oh well we took home everyone than i came home, called work at 4 found out i wasn't going to come in till 6 which i was happy for, but than anthony got on, and i find out people are talking about me to chase. and to put the icing on the bitter cake, he won't tell me who the people are....yeah lovely.

I'M SO SICK AND TIRED OF EVERYONE BEING COMPLETELY PISSED AND MAD AT ME...OMG IF YOU ARE TELL ME, DON'T GO AND TALK ABOUT ME BEHIND MY BACK. SERIOUSLY I'M GOING TO FIND OUT.

-ANGER- but anyway, call or text the cell 567-278-2607 or you know IM me duckychick843

Because I steal quizzes...

2005-05-27T01:20:25Z

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:

I committed suicide:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I lived next door to you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Mannerisms:
Family:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we'll remain friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you have sex with me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?

TAKE IT, FILL IT OUT, AND MAKE ME HAPPY!!!! :D